Moving on

So I am still dealing with some emotional things but am in a much better place than before.  Long story short......house became available again (will it never die!?"", extreme panic set in, Anxiety about my kids future sky rocketed again.  Decided that we needed to just focus on getting our family established and dropped the house again.  Found out that yet again treatment did not work for a baby.  Sad, first time we have really felt that what we have now may be all we have.  I do think I will look into some other alternative ways to help alleviate some of this anxiety and sadness.  For now, I don't think I will post all the drama anymore because it seems like such a downer.  It is hard because this is my journal but I want to focus on the good.