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Blogger is not letting me rotate my pictures again so until I can figure it out words it is...again.  So I went to a talk therapist and it was just an ok experience.  I was having a hard time expressing my thoughts and feelings and feel like I just came out sounding like a religious zealot, hoovering parent and control freak.  It is not that I care what she thinks but it made the "talk" go in a direction that was not very helpful.  I will go one more time and hope for a better experience but then may move on.  The problem is that yes, I have lots of emotional struggles right now with some very real fears, anxiety, stress, and worry but I feel like I can work through those.  It is the debilitating anxiety I had when we signed for the house that I have to learn to control.  Since I am not experiencing it to nearly the same extent as before it is harder to "figure out." I just seriously feel like that 2 week long panic attack took something from me and my family and left me in a little crumbled mess to figure out. I am working on it but still have daily struggles.  I am simply in a very new phase of life after being home with little ones for 5 years....and this will be my next stage for at least  the next 19 years with kids attending school !  How crazy is that....I sure better get comfortable with it What I do recognize is a desire to draw closer to the Savior and learn more from Him.