Miserable

We have been very fortunate these past 14 months and have had a very healthy baby. We knew it had to end at some point but it has hit our poor little guy hard. It all started last Wednesday when Noah slept it an extra 45 minutes...this never happens. He then took a 3 hour nap......this never happens. He also had 5 poopy diapers which fortunately....never happens. So I knew something was up. The next day we went to playgroup at the park and then to a friends house for lunch. Noah is so social and LOVES to interact with other kids but he was acting very needy and he felt warm. When we went home I took his temperature and it was 104.6! Kind of freaked us out a bit. We dosed him up with tylenol and Motrin every 3 hours as recommended by the on call nurse and then I took him in to to the doctor on Friday because his fever was still 103. He looked him over and saw nothing wrong and of course while in the office Noah was acting a little more chipper. By Saturday however he was a total wreck. He would have total meltdowns for an hour at a time and he wouldn't let Zac or I touch him. He would just lay on the floor writhing around. As this behavior continued and his temperature still stayed super high we made an appointment for Sunday afternoon at the emergency office for our pediatrician. That was until late afternoon so our entire day was spent driving around so Noah could actually sleep. He became really congested and couldn't breathe and wasn't eating. Finally we get him in and he has developed an ear infection. His first one ever:( he has a bad cold is sleep deprived and has a hurting ear also all while his molars are coming in. No wonder he's miserable. Zac and I totally lost it ( Ok, I more so than Zac) a few times and had a few melt downs of our own. It made us so sad that he wouldn't let us cuddle and care for him. He won't sleep on us or anything. We just felt so sad that he is hurting. He is still having melt downs today but did actually eat a banana which is progress. He went to sleep in the car and actually let me then lay him in his crib so maybe we are the downhill slope. All this time have been thinking how could I ever do this with other kids to care for???? How do people do it? I keep telling myself it's a few very hard days but then it will pass, but it feels like eternity. I just want him to feel better and back to himself or at least let me hug on him and comfort him. I never realized how heartbreaking it is to see your little one so upset and to feel so helpless. It has heightened my understanding of our Heavenly Father's love for us to sacrifice His son at such a painful cost. I know this is so minor compared to that great act but I can better understand that love now that I have Noah. I know I need to do so many things better in my life and I hope that I can find the motivation and inspiration to do so. Here's to improvements in health and progression in personal life!